屋顶间的哲学家_梭维斯特-第20部分
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〃jerome;saidhe;doyouknowwhatisgoingononthefrontier?
〃no;lieutenant;repliedi。
〃well;resumedhe;ourcountryisindanger!
〃ididnotwellunderstandhim;andyetitseemedsomethingtome。
〃perhapsyouhaveneverthoughtwhatyourcountrymeans;continuedhe;placinghishandonmyshoulder;‘itisallthatsurroundsyou;allthathasbroughtyouupandfedyou;allthatyouhaveloved!thisgroundthatyousee;thesehouses;thesetrees;thosegirlswhogoalongtherelaughing鈥斺�攖hisisyourcountry!thelawswhichprotectyou;thebreadwhichpaysforyourwork;thewordsyouinterchangewithothers;thejoyandgriefwhichetoyoufromthemenandthingsamongwhichyoulive鈥斺�攖hisisyourcountry!thelittleroomwhereyouusedtoseeyourmother;theremembrancesshehasleftyou;theearthwheresherests鈥斺�攖hisisyourcountry!youseeit;youbreatheit;everywhere!thinktoyourself;myson;ofyourrightsandyourduties;youraffectionsandyourwants;yourpastandyourpresentblessings;writethemallunderasinglename鈥斺�攁ndthatnamewillbeyourcountry!
〃iwastremblingwithemotion;andgreattearswereinmyeyes。
〃ah!iunderstand;criedi;itisourhomeinlarge;itisthatpartoftheworldwheregodhasplacedourbodyandoursoul。
〃youareright;jerome;continuedtheoldsoldier;soyouprehendalsowhatweoweit。
〃truly;resumedi;weoweitallthatweare;itisaquestionoflove。
〃andofhonesty;myson;concludedhe。thememberofafamilywhodoesnotcontributehisshareofworkandofhappinessfailsinhisduty;andisabadkinsman;thememberofapartnershipwhodoesnotenrichitwithallhismight;withallhiscourage;andwithallhisheart;defraudsitofwhatbelongstoit;andisadishonestman。itisthesamewithhimwhoenjoystheadvantagesofhavingacountry;anddoesnotaccepttheburdensofit;heforfeitshishonor;andisabadcitizen!
〃andwhatmustonedo;lieutenant;tobeagoodcitizen?askedi。
〃doforyourcountrywhatyouwoulddoforyourfatherandmother;saidhe。
〃ididnotansweratthemoment;myheartwasswelling;andthebloodboilinginmyveins;butonreturningalongtheroad;myuncleswordswere;sotospeak;writtenupbeforemyeyes。irepeated;doforyourcountrywhatyouwoulddoforyourfatherandmother。andmycountryisindanger;anenemyattacksit;whilei鈥斺�攊turncupsandballs!
〃thisthoughttormentedmesomuchallnightthatthenextdayireturnedtovincennestoannouncetothelieutenantthatihadjustenlisted;andwasgoingofftothefrontier。thebravemanpresseduponmehiscrossofst。louis;andiwentawayasproudasanambassador。
〃thatishow;neighbor;ibecameavolunteerundertherepublicbeforeihadcutmywisdomteeth。〃
allthiswastoldquietly;andinthecheerfulspiritofhimwholooksuponanacplisheddutyneitherasameritnoragrievance。
whilehespoke;fatherchaufourgrewanimated;notonaccountofhimself;butofthegeneralsubject。evidentlythatwhichoccupiedhiminthedramaoflifewasnothisownpart;butthedramaitself。
thissortofdisinterestednesstouchedme。iprolongedmyvisit;andshowedmyselfasfrankaspossible;inordertowinhisconfidenceinreturn。inanhourstimeheknewmypositionandmyhabits;iwasonthefootingofanoldacquaintance。
ievenconfessedtheill…humorthelightofhislampputmeintoashorttimebefore。hetookwhatisaidwiththetouchingcheerfulnesswhichesfromaheartintherightplace;andwhichlooksuponeverythingonthegoodside。heneitherspoketomeofthenecessitywhichobligedhimtoworkwhileicouldsleep;norofthedeprivationsoftheoldsoldierparedtotheluxuryoftheyoungclerk;heonlystruckhisforehead;accusedhimselfofthoughtlessness;andpromisedtoputlistroundhisdoor!
ogreatandbeautifulsoul!withwhomnothingturnstobitterness;andwhoartperemptoryonlyindutyandbenevolence!
october15th鈥斺�攖hismorningiwaslookingatalittleengravingihadframedmyself;andhungovermywriting…table;itisadesignofgavarnis;inwhich;inagravemood;hehasrepresentedaveteranandaconscript。
byoftencontemplatingthesetwofigures;sodifferentinexpression;andsotruetolife;bothhavebeelivinginmyeyes;ihaveseenthemmove;ihaveheardthemspeak;thepicturehasbeearealscene;atwhichiampresentasspectator。
theveteranadvancesslowly;hishandleaningontheshoulderoftheyoungsoldier。hiseyes;closedforever;nolongerperceivethesunshiningthroughthefloweringchestnut…trees。intheplaceofhisrightarmhangsanemptysleeve;andhewalkswithawoodenleg;thesoundofwhichonthepavementmakesthosewhopassturntolook。
atthesightofthisancientwreckfromourpatrioticwars;thegreaternumbershaketheirheadsinpity;andiseemtohearasighoranimprecation。
〃seetheworthofglory!〃saysaportlymerchant;turningawayhiseyesinhorror。
〃whatadeplorableuseofhumanlife!〃rejoinsayoungmanwhocarriesavolumeofphilosophyunderhisarm。
〃thetrooperwouldbetternothavelefthisplow;〃addsacountryman;withacunningair。
〃pooroldman!〃murmursawoman;almostcrying。
theveteranhasheard;andheknitshisbrow;foritseemstohimthathisguidehasgrownthoughtful。thelatter;attractedbywhathehearsaroundhim;hardlyanswerstheoldmansquestions;andhiseyes;vaguelylostinspace;seemtobeseekingthereforthesolutionofsomeproblem。
iseemtoseeatwitchinginthegraymoustachesoftheveteran;hestopsabruptly;and;holdingbackhisguidewithhisremainingarm:
〃theyallpityme;〃sayshe;〃becausetheydonotunderstandit;butifiweretoanswerthem鈥斺�敗�
〃whatwouldyousaytothem;father?〃askstheyoungman;withcuriosity。
〃ishouldsayfirsttothewomanwhoweepswhenshelooksatme;tokeephertearsforothermisfortunes;foreachofmywoundscallstomindsomestruggleformycolors。thereisroomfordoubtinghowsomemenhavedonetheirduty;withmeitisvisible。icarrytheaccountofmyservices;writtenwiththeenemyssteelandlead;onmyself;topitymeforhavingdonemydutyistosupposeiwouldbetterhavebeenfalsetoit。〃
〃andwhatwouldyousaytothecountryman;father?〃
〃ishouldtellhimthat;todrivetheplowinpeace;wemustfirstsecurethecountryitself;andthat;aslongasthereareforeignersreadytoeatourharvest;theremustbearmstodefendit。〃
〃buttheyoungstudent;too;shookhisheadwhenhelamentedsuchauseoflife。〃
〃becausehedoesnotknowwhatself…sacrificeandsufferingcanteach。
thebooksthathestudieswehaveputinpractice;thoughweneverreadthem:theprinciplesheapplaudswehavedefendedwithpowderandbayonet。〃
〃andatthepriceofyourlimbsandyourblood。themerchantsaid;whenhesawyourmaimedbody;seetheworthofglory!〃
〃donotbelievehim;myson:thetruegloryisthebreadofthesoul;itisthiswhichnourishesself…sacrifice;patience;andcourage。themasterofallhasbestoweditasatiethemorebetweenmen。whenwedesiretobedistinguishedbyourbrethren;dowenotthusproveouresteemandoursympathyforthem?thelongingforadmirationisbutonesideoflove。no;no;thetrueglorycanneverbetoodearlypaidfor!
thatwhichweshoulddeplore;child;isnottheinfirmitieswhichproveagenerousself…sacrifice;butthosewhichourvicesorourimprudencehavecalledforth。ah!ificouldspeakaloudtothosewho;whenpassing;castlooksofpityuponme;ishouldsaytotheyoungmanwhoseexcesseshavedimmedhissightbeforeheisold;whathaveyoudonewithyoureyes?totheslothfulman;whowithdifficultydragsalonghisenervatedmassofflesh;whathaveyoudonewithyourfeet?totheoldman;whoispunishedforhisintemperancebythegout;whathaveyoudonewithyourhands?toall;whathaveyoudonewiththedaysgodgrantedyou;withthefacultiesyoushouldhaveemployedforthegoodofyourbrethren?ifyoucannotanswer;bestownomoreofyourpityupontheoldsoldiermaimedinhiscountryscause;forhe鈥斺�攈eatleast鈥斺�攃anshowhisscarswithoutshame。〃
october16th鈥斺�攖helittleengravinghasmademeprehendbetterthemeritsoffatherchaufour;andithereforeesteemhimallthemore。
hehasjustnowleftmyattic。therenolongerpassesasingledaywithouthisingtoworkbymyfire;ormygoingtositandtalkbyhisboard。
theoldartillerymanhasseenmuch;andlikestotellofit。fortwentyyearshewasanarmedtravellerthroughouteurope;andhefoughtwithouthatred;forhewaspossessedbyasinglethought鈥斺�攖hehonorofthenationalflag!itmighthavebeenhissuperstition;ifyouwill;butitwas;atthesametime;hissafeguard。
thewordfrance;whichwasthenresoundingsogloriouslythroughtheworld;servedasatalismantohimagainstallsortsoftemptation。tohavetosupportagreatnamemayseemaburdentovulgarminds;butitisanencouragementtovigorousones。
〃i;too;havehadmanymoments;〃saidhetometheotherday;〃whenihavebeentemptedtomakefriendswiththedevil。warisnotpreciselytheschoolforruralvirtues。bydintofburning;destroying;andkilling;yougrowalittletoughasregardsyourfeelings;and;whenthebayonethasmadeyouking;thenotionsofanautocrateintoyourheadalittlestrongly。butatthesemomentsicalledtomindthatcountrywhichthelieutenantspokeoftome;andiwhisperedtomyselfthewell…knownphrase;toujoursfrancais!ithasbeenlaughedatsince。peoplew